something to blog about

i realise my blog post has been dwindling, not in the sense of number of post but in the sense of my own personal feelings. i used to write a lot about what i feel about things, despite being emo, angry or frustrated. when i read back recent past blogs, many posts are about where i went, what i did or some craps which i find it .. i just blog for the sake of blogging.

i've been avoiding to post up blogs about my inner feelings, maybe the layer of insecurities has started to build around me again. i've wrote many about it, just to find myself deleting it after all the typing. sometimes i feel bad posting it up for fear it might discourage people who are reading it. maybe that explains i've not much to blog about. i use to get frustrated over a small matter, get back home and vent my anger in blog. i've tried to do it now but i struggle with it. i've shrug off many irritations, or maybe i just don't care anymore.

it'll be so nice sitting by the beach in the evening with a few friends, sipping a few bottles of beers, watching the sunset, listening to the waves, talking nonses or just enjoying each other company till the late night, seems like there is nothing in the world to worry about. those are the scene that came back to me last night. how i miss those times. i wish i can do it again.